To know me is to understand me and understanding me you know that I'm a person of many words. Ironically enough, I clam up when it comes time to express myself. Not that I don't know how I just find it easier NOT to state what's bugging me than to rock the boat. Not a good practice, yes I've grown to realize this. But I am working on it. Easier said than done though. The saying is true: "Old habits do die hard." Lately I've been aiming to address issues AS SOON as it starts to affect me so I don't give it the chance to fester and grow bigger than I'm able to control. I've been doing OK so far but there's still some issues I haven't opened up on.
Sure I can say what I've been feeling but there is an underlying fear. I believe in not asking questions to which you don't want to hear the answer to so I've remained quiet. I also have a tendency to put pieces of a puzzle together on my own. Its not my best trait but I'm a really complex thinker and I HAVE to make sense of my situations or situations involving me. I will admit that once I've set my mind on a reason its kind of hard to convince me otherwise. I know this. I usually won't admit to it but I'm aware of it.
Reflecting I've watched myself grow tremendously in the last year alone. I've learned so much about myself and I'm still continue to get to know me. In the process of getting to know me I've become extremely comfortable. But comfort isn't always a good thing. Naturally as humans we fear the unknown. We like knowing what comes next. Not everyone adapts to change swiftly and with ease. I'm one of those people. Maybe this is the reason issues linger with me and questions go unanswered. I'm pretty sure I'm answering my own questions but things don't always make sense when they're just ideas in your head.
Eventually I'll say something. Hopefully sooner than later. I guess that's up to me then huh?
Sure I can say what I've been feeling but there is an underlying fear. I believe in not asking questions to which you don't want to hear the answer to so I've remained quiet. I also have a tendency to put pieces of a puzzle together on my own. Its not my best trait but I'm a really complex thinker and I HAVE to make sense of my situations or situations involving me. I will admit that once I've set my mind on a reason its kind of hard to convince me otherwise. I know this. I usually won't admit to it but I'm aware of it.
Reflecting I've watched myself grow tremendously in the last year alone. I've learned so much about myself and I'm still continue to get to know me. In the process of getting to know me I've become extremely comfortable. But comfort isn't always a good thing. Naturally as humans we fear the unknown. We like knowing what comes next. Not everyone adapts to change swiftly and with ease. I'm one of those people. Maybe this is the reason issues linger with me and questions go unanswered. I'm pretty sure I'm answering my own questions but things don't always make sense when they're just ideas in your head.
Eventually I'll say something. Hopefully sooner than later. I guess that's up to me then huh?
u don't have to be a person of many words to handle things up front. confronting things up front and explaining how you feel about them are 2 different things. you can easily tell someone you don't feel comfortable with someting and leave it at that. whether you explain WHY is strictly up to you.
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